Tuesday, July 29, 2014

Happy Birthday, Carson!

Happy 4th birthday, Carson!!

We spent our morning at the Y which was fine with him because he was able to tell everyone that it was his birthday! :)
We went to the store where he got to pick out the kind of cake he wanted me to make - "white cake with brown on top." Yes, sir!
We went to dinner at this restaurant of choice - Buffalo Wild Wings!!!
He got cards and presents from his grandparents and great grandparents.
He has been counting down to his 4th birthday because that means he is able to ride in a booster seat. So, we made a special trip to Target to get the perfect seat for him!
We ended the day with cake -- white cake and brown on top.

When I tucked him in tonight I told him that I am sure glad I am his mommy. It's true. He is such a blessing and I am so thankful God chose me to be his mommy!

Zeph. 3:17

Monday, July 28, 2014

My Jesus I Love Thee

Thirteen days ago I posted a Mommy/Easton update. At that point, I had a doctor's appointment scheduled for tomorrow (July 29th). After a not-so-good weekend I ended up in the doctor's office today. I had an ultrasound to check on Easton and the uterine window. Both are fine. However, I have been having some cramping, contractions, and soreness that aren't fine. Instead of going back in two weeks, I have to go back next week. I am blessed to have a doctor that is keeping a close watch on me.

Rewind to this morning...
I called my doctor first thing this morning to tell him the details of the weekend. He scheduled an ultrasound and asked that I come in within a couple hours. Nate was home from work so he drove the boys to Tiffany's so he could come with me to the doctor's appointment. 
IMPORTANT SIDE NOTE: Nate has been incredible the past couple days. He has taken such good care of me. He took off work today so I could have another day of rest. He is such a blessing! I am so thankful for Tiffany who didn't hesitate when I called her this morning. She let the boys come play for a few hours which was a huge help! I am so blessed!
Ok, so Nate took the boys. Not five minutes after they left my dietitian called. Reminder: I have been diagnosed with gestational diabetes. For the past few days I have been on a restricted diet and I have had to check my blood sugar four times a day. Sounds fun, huh?! Well, she called today to tell me that I would need to be put on medicine. I have an appointment with her tomorrow to find out what that entails. 
Ok. Overwhelmed. I hung up the phone and started crying. Tears of frustration, anxiety, concern, everything. About a minute into my pity party and prayer I felt the presence of God. I feel like he is with me in the details of my day but I LOVE the times when he makes himself known in specific, tangible ways. It was a peaceful assurance that everything was going to be okay. Yes, like an audible voice experience. I could hear him say, "It's going to be okay. It's going to be okay." I found myself sitting on the couch with no tears to cry. All I could do was say, "Okay" back to him and trust that he knows. 
As if that wasn't enough...I went upstairs to turn on Pandora and start getting ready to go to the doctor. Hillsong's "My Jesus I Love Thee" came on...for all my pregnancies this is the song that I have sung to my babies. For this song to be on Pandora at this particular moment was no coincidence! I did cry then because I know that God knows my mommy heart. He knew what I needed to hear to be completely sure that when he said, "It's going to be okay" that he meant it. 

I went to the ultrasound and doctor's appointment with a peace and assurance that everything was going to be okay regardless of what the doctors said. When this face popped up on the ultrasound screen, I LOST IT!! They weren't tears of fear or worry. They were tears of overwhelming love for this face! My boy. 

So, I meet with the dietitian tomorrow afternoon.
I have another ultrasound and doctor's appointment next Tuesday (August 5th).

I will probably have this song on repeat until then...and singing it to my baby boy.

Zeph. 3:17

Thursday, July 17, 2014

Mommy/Easton Update

I had a follow up ultrasound on Tuesday. After discovering a uterine window (see July 1 blog for more info :)) at the preceding appointment they wanted to make sure it hadn't gotten any bigger. I have been really anxious about this and following doctor's orders as best I can. Obviously if there are any uterine issues then contractions aren't a good thing. So, my doctor has encouraged me to limit lifting, bending, and standing for long periods of time.

Update: The uterine window has not gotten any bigger! Praise the Lord!!! I am still on lifting/bending/standing restrictions which is fine. The boys have been great even though they don't really understand. They love swimming which is awesome because it feels good for me to get in the water.

However, UGH, blood work came back and I have developed gestational diabetes. I was supposed to hear from the diabetes clinic today so I could set up an appointment for consultation and treatments. I didn't hear from them so hopefully I will hear something tomorrow. With gestational diabetes babies tend to be bigger. Ok, if you know my history, I don't have small babies anyway. Brandon was 8 lbs 9 oz, Carson was 9 lbs 1 oz, Dalton was 11 lbs 5 oz.  I was borderline diabetic with Brandon but not with the other two. So, Easton's size is a factor when it comes to the uterine window issue. The bigger he gets the more likely for me to have uterus issues. After an emotional doctor's visit my doctor gave me an honest, "This is going to be a rough pregnancy but you'll be fine." Well alrighty! =/

So, plan from here? I am going back for another ultrasound/doctor visit on July 29th. Hopefully there is still no change. I will be 28 weeks at that point. I will continue to go every two weeks (assuming everything stays as is) until I am 32 weeks and then I will go every week. He is hoping I can make it to 36 to 38 weeks to deliver. ME TOO!! I want Easton to stay put as long as his lungs/heart/everything need him to.

The further along I get in the pregnancy the less anxious I get. The main reason for the anxiety is Easton's health. I don't want something to happen and him come too early. The further along I get in the pregnancy the less worried I am.

Thanks for those of you that have been praying!!

Zeph. 3:17

Tuesday, July 1, 2014

Do Not Be Anxious...???

Matthew 6:25-34 uses the phrase "do not be anxious" three times. Do not be anxious about life, provision, your future. Verse 33 reminds us to "seek first the kingdom of God." I have repeated this verse to myself several times today but I still feel anxious and worried. I am anxious about life (mine and baby's). I am anxious about provision as we are having to make some adjustments for the next few months. I am anxious about what the next few weeks and months might hold. In the anxiety, I KNOW to seek the Lord and the peace that only he can give. I KNOW that he is not a God of fear (2 Timothy 1:7).

I had an ultrasound last month that determined baby #4 is a boy. We also found out in that ultrasound that after three c-sections, my uteran lining is very thin. My doctor recommended that I have a follow up ultrasound to check on the status of the uteran lining. Well, that ultrasound was today...and it has been an emotional day!

I was told by the ultrasound tech and my doctor that I have a 6cm window on the lining of my uterus. I quickly found out that it's not a good thing. Long story short - I am not on bedrest but I am on lighter activity for the next two weeks until I go back for another ultrasound. We are basically taking it two weeks at a time until Easton is born.

I will update on here as things happen.
We would appreciate the prayers.

Thank you!!!

Zeph. 3:17